There’s nothing left for us to say or do. There’s no going back to those days where we could be carefree with our words. Now all we have is our memories and thoughts we “get” to keep to ourselves. I understood the issue, but I thought the issue was resolved. I thought we were adults now, I thought friendship would be allowed? After all, that’s … Continue reading this is what we “get.”
As I celebrate my 24th birthday, I wanted to reflect on my 23rd year, and jot down 24 things to be thankful for, as I am now 24 years old! (Crazy!) 23 was such a good year, and I’m pretty sad that it’s over. I’m mainly sad because I can’t fully jam to my favorite song the way I could when I was 23 (“nobody … Continue reading 24 things to be thankful for!
Give your dogs baths regularly. You know how great you feel after a shower? You don’t always feel like taking one, but you feel so much better after you do. Give your dogs baths regularly. Brush your dogs teeth. Don’t you hate that feeling of dirty teeth? Don’t you hate when nobody tells you there’s something in your front tooth? Doesn’t it feel better to … Continue reading Dogs are better.
Whew! It’s been a long time since I’ve written in my journal, in a blog (published one, anyway) or at all! I feel like the main reason I write, is because I don’t want to forget. So in these past 6 months where so much has happened, I wish I was writing through the whole thing, but I’ve been lazy. I haven’t been reflecting, rather, … Continue reading It’s been a while!
Tennessee. The second and final part to our adventure in the Army. Though the scenery has not been nearly as beautiful as Washingtons, our adventure here became greater than I could have imagined. So much has happened here, and I can’t help but be so thankful that we left Washington (as much as it pains me to say) and came here to Clarksville, Tennessee. … Continue reading Reflection & Farewell to Tennessee.
I’ve been waiting a long time to jam to this song on my 23rd birthday! And be able to say (until my 24th birthday) that NOBODY LIKES YOU WHEN YOU’RE 23! And if you happen to not know what I’m referring too…Google is calling your name. In anticipation of this birthday, I’ve been thinking a lot about being 23. I used to think it was … Continue reading What’s my age again? 23rd Birthday!
Why is it that I fear your return? Maybe fear isn’t the right word. Besides completely ecstatic, there is something else that I feel. A feeling much deeper than nervous. A feeling much stronger than relief. Definitely confused about the collision and connection of time, love, and feelings in all of this. From the moment you left, time seemed to have stopped. Tick tick tick … Continue reading untitled 3/25/17
It’s raining there because it’s time for you to leave. The rain is trying to wash you out. I wish it were that simple. I wish the rain would carry you back to me. I wish it would wash away the misery you’ve endured there, as well as my misery from being away from you. Quicker than a plane, quicker than the sea. I wish … Continue reading Back to me.
I could fill hundreds of notebooks with words about you. If I didn’t know any better I would tell everyone I meet who you are and how much I deeply love you and miss you. And a better person would try to empathize with me. And they would tell me that they understand and then slur out, “I know how you feel.” And then I … Continue reading The way I fiercely love you.
I walked out the front door today and everything felt different. The leaves on ground weren’t bright or vibrant the way they were yesterday. The neighbors houses looked empty. The streets looked lonely. It’s like everyone else had finally realized that you were gone, and maybe I finally realized it too. As if they love you the way I do. As if they had lost … Continue reading November 2nd.
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