perksofbeingmel

Today.

Today I feel like everything last night affected the rest of my ‘todays.’

Today it seems like you’re unaffected, but I’m completely affected like a disease.

Today makes me want to change.

Today I know where my opinion counts.

Today I can feel the grey sky pour into my body.

Today I can feel your voice floating throughout my head.

Today I know I’m tired of trying.

Today I feel too exhausted to even think.

Today I won’t be waiting around.

Today we can’t pretend our feelings weren’t hurt.

Today I can’t pretend I’m not feeling worthless.

Today I’m trying not to lose my temper, my patience.

Oh, today.