perksofbeingmel

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  • *exhale*

    if there was every a time to give my body the credit it deserves, it would be now at 31, almost 32 years old. I’ve never had an appreciation for it the way I do right now – coming out of a 7 year stretch of avoiding dairy like the plague, I am free of…

  • Protected: The cost of healing.

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  • stories of Starbucks, 1

    I am a self proclaimed Starbucks dweller, and if you ask anyone who knows me, they’ll confirm. I see and hear a lot of things the few hours I’m there – sometimes on purpose, mostly on accident. Though I’ve been an expert eavesdropper most of my life, I tend to just pick up on conversations…

  • comfort leaving me again

    I already feel myself withdrawing I put on my comfort movie, made my comfort meal, and sat with myself knowing that I’m sad, and it probably won’t go away I want it to stay the same, the change is what I’m sad about, yet here I am, initiating the change before it happens Maybe it’s…

  • 🌊

    I look at myself and think, “how absolutely insane to carry on this way?” I wonder what others think, if they know. I haven’t said much. Just carried on quietly. Which I think reflects my growth. My quietness, for once, has created waves. Though I’m devastated to say the least, I’m thankful for the waves…

  • immeasurable desire

    suddenly, yet not so, I’m back to 2013 where all I did was long for your existence. I knew how good life would be with you, I quite literally knew it was meant for me. though this time, in 2025, I’m left with the ache of knowing just how exquisite my life would become, because…

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