perksofbeingmel

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  • I think your love is wrong

    to my mother who swore that she loved me how does it feel to not know me at all you can call it love all day long but maybe love is subjective, and in your case, conditional saying what you think I want to hear won’t work this time, you realized that quickly I’m not…

  • *exhale*

    if there was every a time to give my body the credit it deserves, it would be now at 31, almost 32 years old. I’ve never had an appreciation for it the way I do right now – coming out of a 7 year stretch of avoiding dairy like the plague, I am free of…

  • Protected: The cost of healing.

    There is no excerpt because this is a protected post.

  • stories of Starbucks, 1

    I am a self proclaimed Starbucks dweller, and if you ask anyone who knows me, they’ll confirm. I see and hear a lot of things the few hours I’m there – sometimes on purpose, mostly on accident. Though I’ve been an expert eavesdropper most of my life, I tend to just pick up on conversations…

  • comfort leaving me again

    I already feel myself withdrawing I put on my comfort movie, made my comfort meal, and sat with myself knowing that I’m sad, and it probably won’t go away I want it to stay the same, the change is what I’m sad about, yet here I am, initiating the change before it happens Maybe it’s…

  • 🌊

    I look at myself and think, “how absolutely insane to carry on this way?” I wonder what others think, if they know. I haven’t said much. Just carried on quietly. Which I think reflects my growth. My quietness, for once, has created waves. Though I’m devastated to say the least, I’m thankful for the waves…

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