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numb

I wasn’t expecting to begin feeling somewhat numb to you From so heavily dependent on you, to now feeling avoidant and un phased Not missing you and not craving your attention is almost satisfying From being shaped by you to un shaping myself of you I never expected it But all my work must have…

selfish & pure at the same time

as time goes on with you, it’s very hard for me to look at anyone else and think their love could possibly be as great as ours until this year I had never thought that – I knew our story was great, I knew our love was great, but this year was a shift in…

who was that kid?

I find it a bit troubling how the olympics happening (we aren’t even watching it) bothers me so much. I honestly can’t stand anything gymnastics related. It brings up a lot of weird feelings I’m trying to name and sit with, as much as I’d like to just push them away or not acknowledge them.…

it’s always because of you.

what am I supposed to do with all this pain leftover? do I disperse it evenly in tolerable doses? I know that it will never go away, so to hell with the idea of trying to bury it. I believe in feeling everything – or, maybe I don’t believe it, so much as I cannot…

turning chaos into euphoria

the ebbs and flows of my frustrations leave me unable to express my desires the emotions I’m always told are too much too sensitive “nobody cares” – but they do. I feel and hear everything, all at once, it’s not euphoric, it’s chaotic chaos I channel into happiness, and my everyday bliss for life –…

the day the air was fresh

I think if you can find joy in how green the leaves look, how sweet the air feels in through your nose & how your lungs accept the air, the richness of the blue in the sky and the shapes of the clouds – then you have the means to be happy everyday of your…