when life was different, I was taking care of my younger cousin, hiding in closets from the screaming. when life was different, my mom, dad, sister and I were playing baseball and kickball in the backyard. when life was different, I would watch my dad burn leaves in the backyard. when life was different, my…

Tonight I feel alone, though I should feel far from it. Tonight I don’t feel like I’ll have anyone when everything falls apart.  Tonight I don’t know what I’m supposed to be doing. Am I meant to do anything? Tonight I don’t think I’m meant for anything extraordinary.   Tonight I’m settling for merely ordinary.…

As our time in Washing is ending, I’m getting really excited to move to Kentucky, well technically we’re living in Clarksville, TN, but anyways, I’m really excited!  I’ve been excited and on board to move to a new state since I found out the option was arriving.  But as our move day is approaching, two…

Today. Today I feel like everything last night affected the rest of my ‘todays.’ Today it seems like you’re unaffected, but I’m completely affected like a disease. Today makes me want to change. Today I know where my opinion counts. Today I can feel the grey sky pour into my body. Today I can feel…

It’s something I dread every single day.  It’s something my mind can’t handle even thinking about. Imagine if it happened.  Imagine what I’d do.   Think about what would become of the person everyone once knew.   What would my life be like?  Would I be totally different?  Would I ever be able to think…

alone. embarrassed. freakish. worried. un important. outcasted. emotional. bothered. forgotten. left behind. judged. misunderstood. lost. confused. discontent. disconnected. cold. curious. gone. un wanted.   where do these feelings come from?  is it possible to feel them all at once?