I’m done feeling like I need to be accepted by you to feel worthy or good about myself. 

I don’t wish to be apart of anything that doesn’t allow me to be my full self.

I am swearing to myself to create healthy boundaries that keep me at peace.

 I want to feel good about myself when I am around people.

 I don’t want to feel judged or unwanted.

I am going to accept what good things you present to me.

But I cannot say that I am over the bad.

I am going to present good things to you and focus on being kind, and giving what I would want given to me.

I’ve allowed myself to let you control me for too long.  I can’t give you any more power.

 I won’t ever go back to whomever I was when you liked me.  

Truth is, I don’t know when you stopped liking who I was. I rattle my brain trying to retrace our steps.

But I am who I am now, and I only know how to be myself, whether it’s approved by you or not.

I will continue to mourn us.  

I will continue to try and forgive.

I will be who I need to be for myself.  And if that upsets what expectations you’ve put on me, then so be it.

Two quotes from a book I’m reading called Boundaires.

“In reality, setting limits on others is a misnomer.  We can’t do that.  What we can do is set lomots on out own exposure to people who are behaving poorly; we can’t change them or make them behave right.”

“But God limits his exposure to evil, unrepentant people, as should we. Scripture is full of admonitions to separate outselves from people who act in destructive ways. (Matt. 18:15-17; 1 Cor. 5:9-13). We are not being unloving. Separating ourselves protects love, because we are taking a stand against things that destory love.”