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365 +- 3155 = forever
How could it already be 365 days? All I had with you was 3,155 days. Those days I replay in my head throughout the last 365, and for the rest of my life. Almost every moment accounted for. But counting the days is irrelevent. Sure it makes me grateful, I’ll be grateful for the rest…
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it’s actually not okay.
It’s like you plan it. Like you know exactly when you’re going to do it.There’s a look in your eye and a smirk on your face & you tense up just enough to look guilty as fuck.And I laugh it off and go along with it. Still.As soon as we’re done, I think “well that’s…
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Boundaries
I’m done feeling like I need to be accepted by you to feel worthy or good about myself. I don’t wish to be apart of anything that doesn’t allow me to be my full self. I am swearing to myself to create healthy boundaries that keep me at peace. I want to feel good about…
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all the little cracks. hello to the new decade.
I think since I graduated high school, every year of my life has gotten better. I’ve continued to become happier as each day turns into weeks, months and years. Coming from such a dark place that was K-12, I emerged excited and overwhelmed with freedom. It’s taken me almost 7 years to figure out what…
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keeping up with the seasons
Over the last few months I have learned quite a bit more about the people around me. I’ve always considered myself an empathetic person. And I’ve been pretty outspoken that I think empathy is something everyone should possess. The sad truth is, so many people do not have the ability to put themselves into someone…
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Mad at myself for being mad.
There’s no way I can stop being mad at you, deep down, I always will be. But I need to find a way to stop thinking about you, anticipating you, and wondering about you. I want to stop thinking about you. I need to stop thinking about you. For the rest of my life. But…
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“…that of being.”
Lately I’ve felt like I’ve been hearing too much of “Wake up early and get shit done” “Stop wasting time,” “Don’t wait, act now,” “Do more everyday to get closer to your dream!” And while I think that there is a time and placed to get shit done, jump on opportunities and live life to…
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this is what we “get.”
There’s nothing left for us to say or do. There’s no going back to those days where we could be carefree with our words. Now all we have is our memories and thoughts we “get” to keep to ourselves. I understood the issue, but I thought the issue was resolved. I thought we were adults…
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24 things to be thankful for!
As I celebrate my 24th birthday, I wanted to reflect on my 23rd year, and jot down 24 things to be thankful for, as I am now 24 years old! (Crazy!) 23 was such a good year, and I’m pretty sad that it’s over. I’m mainly sad because I can’t fully jam to my favorite…
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It’s been a while!
Whew! It’s been a long time since I’ve written in my journal, in a blog (published one, anyway) or at all! I feel like the main reason I write, is because I don’t want to forget. So in these past 6 months where so much has happened, I wish I was writing through the whole…
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– love, life, & seeking understanding
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